Recap on California

This past week has been really fun. My friend Maddie flew back to California the same day as me and it's been really nice to have someone to hang out with out here. 

Not gonna lie, it's been rough feeling alone out in a new state, even when I was surrounded with people I knew. There's been a million things I've seen about loneliness, and that you can be sitting in the same room as someone and still feel completely alone. I think that was true out here and I think It built up resentment for me and someone else, but fortunately we worked things out in a sense of distance to put us at a place where we can be friends and not continue to build walls. Life's not as hard as it seems, I think communication is hard. It's harder than it seems. Advice is easier to give to other people but taking your own is pretty fuckin hard. 

All in all, aside from that I think that it's clear to me that I LOVE California, but I don't think I love living here. It is alwYa fun to visit and show people the places I've discovered, and I don't regret moving here but I think after all that's happened in the past two weeks I'm ready to go home. I took in a lot here and I know people judge my decisions and want to think moving home is weak, but that's the thing about me: I don't care. It's my life and my happiness and I know I'm happier back home especially with the circumstances of my life AT THE MOMENT. maybe one day I'll come back out here, after I have an established career and a real goal for myself. Right now I feel a little disoriented. 

But I'm in my twenties. 

There's that. When you're in your twenties you think you need to grow up and get it together, to live up to the expectations of your parents or your friends who have a solid path, but really it's about finding your soul and feeling a purpose for yourself. 

Or at least that's how I feel. 

Anyways, I got some great views this past week. 

 Oceanside, CA

Koreatown, LA, CA 

Pancakes @ The Griddle in LA 

San Clemente, CA 

Up on the Parking garage @ The Grove

San Clemente 

Saw SWIMM @ the Satellite. Look them up on YouTube! They were amazing.
This was my favorite

Cause when were in California we see shows by people from Florida. duh. 

 Carlsbad, CA 

La Jolla, SD, CA 

Lovd it. Love the beauty of this place and this world. It's so incredible to feel so much when you look at something. Pictures don't do it justice but they really do capture a memory.